I’ve been feeling kinda quiet lately as God has really been challenging me in a lot of ways. My previous post about blame shifting is just one of the ways that God’s been working in my heart. Having misplaced A Man Called Peter one night, I began reading Charles Stanley’s book The Wonderful Spirit Filled Life and it’s really rockin’ my world. I want what he’s talking about. I long to live that consistent, Spirit-filled life and bear much fruit, and I honestly can’t see the evidence of that right now. I find myself trying to produce the fruit myself. I’ll determine that I’m going to be more patient, or practice self-control, but that’s not what the Spirit-filled life is about. It’s about Abiding in Christ (John 15) and bearing the fruit that He is producing, not attempting to produce it myself. In addition, I was reminded this evening, that it’s not the fruit that I should be pursuing, but God Himself. If I pursue that relationship with Him, if I pursue HIM, then the fruit will come. As great as the fruit is, and as beneficial as it is to me and those who have to live with me, and those that encounter me who don’t know the Lord, my focus isn’t to be on the fruit, but on the Producer of the fruit, the Vine Himself: Jesus! He's what I really need! So that’s where my heart is, trying to figure out how to truly yield to the Spirit, to walk in Him, and to Abide in Christ and not try to accomplish His purposes in MY flesh, but to surrender myself to the Lordship of Christ, and be sensitive to the Holy Spirit’s leading so that I am able to bear that desirable fruit in ANY and every circumstance.